It’s been awhile since I last posted. I was trying to do the whole “fake it til you make it” thing – but it didn’t really work. My funk never really went away, and a stupid choice I made ended up making it worse.
But today? For the first time in weeks I feel whole. I don’t feel as if I have to hide behind a fake smile to get through the day.
None of it has to do with my health or weight; but hopefully getting out of the funk will help me get back on the path towards healthiness.
I discovered this amazing thing – fresh local produce delivered to my door! I signed up and will get my first box on Wednesday.
I’m also trying to use Shakeology as a meal replacement for breakfast – but it’s difficult for me to get used to it. I think about food constantly, especially when I’m not eating it. Yet another aspect of my mental health that I need to improve.
I’m slowly getting back on the horse, and hopefully I’ll have a longer “good” period before I hit another blue one. That’s all I can ask for right now – that the length and frequency of my depression changes.