If you’ll recall from my last post, I started from a very low place.
But I asked for help. My doctor gave me some medications and I found a therapist. Now, I can’t really speak to therapy helping (yet). My second session is actually today. And I was late* to the first one so we didn’t get a full hour. And what we did talk about was mostly just assessment for her. I believe today we’ll start digging.
But frankly, the medication has helped. And it should continue to help, considering that it usually takes 4-6 weeks for full results to be felt/seen. I feel. I feel good. I’m actively trying to find ways to rejoin the world. Thank FSM for Sunday Assembly and their “smoups” (small groups).
And being mentally better makes it SO MUCH EASIER to focus on your physical self. When you’re mentally unhealthy, you honestly don’t care about your physical being. But I have to. My continued health depends on it.
So three weeks ago I started the 21 Day Fix. Today is day 21, and I have to tell you – I’m pretty excited about my results. Especially since I’m only doing the diet portion of this program so far.
In the last 21 days I lost 8.4 pounds and 4 inches. I think that bears repeating.
In the last 21 days I lost 8.4 pounds and 4 inches.
Will I continue this program? Abso-freaking-lutely. I’m taking a short break over the weekend, and then I’ll start Round 2 on Monday.
Would I have had the same level of success without the phentermine? I’ll never know. I do know that the amount of food I’m eating right now is not sustainable. But I am learning portion sizes and what foods I should be eating. And when I take a day over the weekend to portion out my snacks (mostly fruit) for the week, it’s a lot easier to grab the healthy items. Generally when I eat bad things (even though they taste so good) it’s because it’s convenient. So I’m working to make healthy choices just as convenient. That kind of lifestyle change IS sustainable.
I’m not naive enough to believe that because I’ve had a few good weeks and am feeling better that I’m miraculously cured and don’t need therapy or to keep actively making good choices. I’m on a high right now because for the first time in months – maybe years – I don’t feel weighed down by the dark. But that won’t last. And I need to learn how to take care of myself and continue to make good choices even when the darkness creeps back in. And it will. It always does. But maybe, just maybe, I can learn how to handle it instead of giving in to it.
*Ever forget your phone and realize you have no GPS and you absolutely CANNOT find the building you’re going to? No? Me either.