Funny story. I forgot today was Wednesday, so I don’t have any measurements from this morning. Whoops. I’ll take them tomorrow morning instead. I don’t think one day’s difference is going to make or break me.
My weight loss has definitely slowed down. It’s a bit of a bummer, but that’s what our bodies do. They adapt! They adjust to the new tortures that we put them through, even if that torture is eating less than 800 calories per day. Luckily, I am now cleared for all activities!
So it’s time for me to start working out. I’m going to start out with Carolina Barre & Core this Saturday – though it’s pretty pricey so I’m not sure how long I’ll manage to keep going. But I am looking forward to using my muscles again and to begin actively shaping my body.
Hopefully, that will jump start the weight loss again. And I’m also hoping it helps me strengthen my core again, because my back pain has come back in full force in the mornings. The first hour or so of moving in the mornings is pretty painful.
Food. Food is the bane of my existence. What I’m actually eating is fine. I’m staying within limits, meeting my calorie and protein goals (well okay, except for one day I didn’t get enough protein), and overall making good choices when it comes to my food.
But I want to eat fast food so badly I can’t stand it! I want a JBC from Wendy’s. A double cheeseburger from Mickey D’s. Fries from Chick-fil-a. Boneless wings from Ba-Da. I haven’t caved yet.
I’m calling this head hunger because I’m fully satisfied by the food that I do eat. The food I eat is healthy and tastes good. There’s no reason for me to crave these foods other than because my stupid brain wants to.
You would think that with nearly EIGHT WEEKS of no fast food (I started with my pre-op diet) that I would be over that hurdle now. The habit should be broken. But addictions run deep. I may always struggle with fast food. I’m trying to be aware of my food triggers, and then determine if it’s sustainable for me to live without those foods for the rest of my life. In most cases, the answer is no. But I’ve found that there are healthy swaps I can make so that those foods aren’t detrimental to my health and progress (see: ThinSlims bread).
So where does that leave me? I think I’m more aware of every bite I put into my mouth now than I ever was before. Food used to rule my life (I can remember crying when my family didn’t want to go out to eat)… and food still rules my life after surgery. But it’s in a different way. I am now more aware of how my body will use the food, rather than just focusing on the pleasure the food will give me.
Total Lost Since Surgery: 21.9
Total Lost: 32.9