Yesterday was my official three weeks from surgery day. But I couldn’t write this update because I was too busy trying to make it through the work day, failing, and then napping at home.
I went back to work this week. And it’s been so much harder than I expected it to be. Physically, I’m fine. I have no pain, and what little soreness or discomfort I still feel in my belly is mostly mitigated by wearing my Spanx to help stop the jiggling. What I didn’t expect was the sheer fatigue I would feel. At home, I didn’t notice it as much because I was generally lounging around and when I did go out it wasn’t for long periods of time. But being back at work as just been exhausting. And I have a desk job! I cannot fathom how folks who are on their feet all day go back to work quickly after surgery. To those of you who do? I salute you!
Another milestone this week – the dreaded three week stall.
When I was post-op and doing my research, I saw folks talk about this over and over and over again. And of course, me being me, I told myself that it would never happen to me! I’d do everything exactly right and I wouldn’t stall.
Ha! What a riot.
Like clockwork, this stall hit me. My scale hasn’t moved in days – and in fact the last time it did move, it went UP! But I’m following my plan. I’ve started walking on my treadmill in the evenings. And eventually the scale will move again.
In the meantime, I’ll celebrate with non-scale victories (NSV). Today’s NSV is that while my scale hasn’t budged, the shirt I’m wearing is loose. The last time I wore it, it was pretty tight across my belly and showed every jiggle with every move. Not today! Today, it fits the way it’s supposed to.
I still can’t see a difference in how I look, but it’s clear that my body *is* changing.
So let’s talk about food. More specifically, let’s talk about head hunger and food. I do get physically hungry, but it rarely happens. Most often what I get is head hunger. I want food. I miss food. Food was such a large part of my pre-op life that it’s difficult to let it go now. The food I eat now is tasty (with the exception of my protein shakes) and healthy. When I eat, it satisfies me. I don’t need to eat more. Yet I still find myself wanting to eat more. Not because I feel hunger, but because it tastes good and I want to continue providing myself with that pleasure. My brain equates food with pleasure. And that’s a habit that I haven’t yet broken – though I’m surely working on it.
Total Lost Since Surgery: 14.8
Total Lost: 25.8
Total inches lost: 11.5