As I continue down this road towards a happy and healthier me, I am constantly amazed at how often I *am* happy. I spent so many years living in the dark that I forgot what it feels like to live in the light. And this year? This year is all about kicking the dark’s ass.
I am less than two pounds away from being under 200 pounds. This has had such a tremendous effect on, not only my physical wellbeing, but my mental wellbeing too. I am able to do things that were previously filed under “can’t” (example: I’m excited about the prospect of going to the fair this year because I have no concerns at all about being able to fit on a ride). I’m starting to be in a place where I can feel “normal” instead of “other”. I bought two new pairs of boots this year, and neither were wide calf. That may seem like a negligible thing to most people, but for those of us who have lived “fat” it’s a really big deal.
I had my 3-month post-op appointment this week (yes, a few weeks late) and I have finally been cleared for all foods. This means I can eat steak again! What it also means is that without a specific food plan to restrict what I eat, I am wholly responsible for making good choices. Of course, I was wholly responsible before – but I had a written guide for what was allowed and what wasn’t. Technically, I have no restrictions now – but that doesn’t mean I can eat cake and pasta every day. Or even every week. It’s now my responsibility to implement this full lifestyle change and keep on track. And I’m really excited about proving to myself that I can continue to do this.
In other news, I bought a new car this week! New me, new car! I’m a little bit in love with it, and kind of never want to get out of it. It’s a 2016 Toyota Prius Three. Isn’t she beautiful? (I haven’t named her yet though).
So yeah. Life is good.
Total Lost Since Surgery: 42.4
Total Lost: 53.5